Days till Manniversary: 22
Today I’ve cleaned my room, which is always a major event for me even though I don’t really let it get as bad as I used to. Also, I went through my entire computer and organized everything into one major file that I can back up when we go get the computer debugged next week. This means I spent an entire day going through files I’ve saved on this computer all the way back through 2005, which was a pretty exhaustive tour of the last 5 years of my life. I got to relive all the embarrassing phases I’ve gone through in my latter teen years. It’s hard to believe the sheer volume of crap I wrote about myself, and it’s kind of embarrassing to see how self-absorbed I was, but at the same time, it’s kind of a good thing because I can go back to almost any given date and see what my mindset was at the time. After I finally gave in and accepted that I was a guy, and after the alter thing ended, it became almost a chore to write about myself because after so many years of trying to figure out who I was, I was so tired of thinking about myself and done with introspection in general. This blog has kind of been a way to force myself to keep cataloging things.
Anyway, today has been a very productive day, because along with organizing and straightening and doing my laundry and so forth, I’ve been inspired to do a couple other things for myself:
1) assemble the playlist I’ll be playing at my Manniversary with songs that are relevant to my interests, and
2) finally put together that really awesome STP/packer with the harness that I’ve been wanting to make for so long.
The playlist includes the following songs which I consider FTM inspiring and empowering (and also amusing):
1. I’m Still Here- Johnny Rzeznik
2. Changes- David Bowie
3. I’ll Make a Man out of You- Mulan Soundtrack
4. A Boy Named Sue- Johnny Cash
5. Pork and Beans- Weezer
6. Half Jack- Dresden Dolls
7. I Can Make You a Man- Rocky Horror Picture Show
8. Rebel, Rebel- David Bowie
The one song that I REALLY wanted to add to my list, Guy Named Joe by Coyote Grace, isn’t yet on Project Playlist, but I’ll have to figure out some way to rectify this. I’ll also be adding more songs as I come across songs that I feel are relevant. If you like this list, feel free to use it or suggest songs you’ve found to be inspiring over your transition.
I’ll probably write about the stp packer next time, because I used techniques from a lot of other sources that I’d like to link to get the device I wanted. I may even include pictures if I can.
I’m feeling very inspired to get things done, which is good because my new goal is to set up my first appointment with my new gender therapist by the 24th, and I still don’t even have insurance. So it’s time to get on that.