So now I’m here, I’m settled in, and I’ve got a semi-coagulated plan for the day. It’s tempting just to sit back, relax, finish my film project and/or wander the Castro for a day and find my feet. But at the same time, I’m hungry, running out of money, and more or less planless, and the city isn’t going to come to me with food and options. I’ve got to get out there and make it happen!
– First, my couch host (who is in gender studies and all other kinds of neat stuff) is going to take me to this club at his school where I’m going to meet a bunch of other trans guys. Apparently they’re going to have a load of resources for me, so I’ve got my pen and paper ready. Also, this is exciting for me because I always kinda felt like a unicorn in Tuolumne county. It’ll be my first time meeting my “species”, or what have you. (I’m hesitant to lump any female-to-male gender variant individual under a single umbrella term, but that’s a rant for another time.) The point is, I get to meet people who’ve traveled a similar path and I might be able to relate to.
– Then, I’m going over to Larkin Street Youth Services to work with a case worker. I would immediately go to a food pantry of some sort, but it looks like all of them, everywhere, only serve people officially living within San Francisco zip codes and they require an I.D., and my current one not only expired last month but it has my Jamestown address. I don’t know how I can update my license without an official address yet, but there you go. I think Larkin will assign me a case worker and they can tell me how to fix my paperwork situations in the long run and where I can go for food without having to prove on paper that I exist in the short term. (Plus, these public service places usually have something to eat.) If they can help me figure out how to update my license and info without having an address, maybe I can get on food stamps and that’ll be one less worry in the watches of trying to start my business.
– After all that, I think there’s a free dinner at a mission somewhere on Ellis, and it didn’t say any thing about requiring I.D. on the pamphlet. I’ll swing by there and see if I can eat.
– Finally, there’s this FTM meetup tonight that I’ve been hearing about on Facebook for weeks, and I’m SO excited to go! I guess it’s a sort of speed dating event for gay guys who are into Trans guys, which seems ridiculously awesome to me, because I didn’t know such a thing existed. All the gay guys I’ve ever met (I could probably count them on a hand or two) are terrified of the beast lurking in my pants. It makes me feel disgusting. I think, if nothing else, this night could serve as a major self-esteem repair.
Wow, I didn’t realize how freaking hungry I was. I’m determined not to spend all my money on food, but the way the food pantry system works here in SF, until I get my paperwork straightened out I see no other option. I just need to set aside money to change my license and keep my phone alive. Think I’m going to go down and grab some breakfast, get some cash for the transit, and buy a phone card. Mmm, subway. Eat flesh.
I’m going to be back very late tonight, so unless I wind up bored in a coffee shop today, there won’t be much internetting. Maybe TOMORROW I can finish my film project and start broadcasting to Youtube, but today it’s all about taking care of business.
Be good, stay well and don’t forget to love yourself!