I’m not sure why it didn’t occur to me to ask here, but really, I just want to know where all the transguys hang out online. I’ve come across plenty of forums, but there’s never really anyone online at the time I show up. The most I’ve ever seen in an FTM chatroom was 4, myself included, and they were mainly idle. Is it just that FTM’s tend to be lone wolves, or am I looking in the wrong places? Because I KNOW there must be some place out on the interwebs where I can go to chat and there are at least a few dozen transguys on there at all times, having lively conversations about crazy things, just like every other group I’ve ever been involved with. There’s a vibrant chat room out there for everything that I can think of. I mean, I know there are more of us than it must seem like, so why, when I go looking, is it always so DESOLATE?
All I really want right now is a sense of community. I want to have somewhere I can go, that when I step in the door, I feel comfortable and have a sense of communion and family- where I can look around and think, “these are my people.” I feel like I’m a member of an endangered species. And I’ve looked everywhere I can think of. I’d join the youtube community if I had a camera, because that’s the closest thing I can find. But I figure, if there’s a chat room out there for people like us, I’d better just start asking around, because I haven’t had any success looking myself so far, and I’ve been looking for a year.
I feel more alone these days than I’ve felt in a very long time. I just want to be with my people.