Last month, I discovered it’s a bad idea to try and live with a name given to you by someone who you might wind up hating down the road. I’m glad that I didn’t get anything done legally about it and all I have to do is change it on places like my blog. (I’d almost forgotten that even needed to, except I clicked the “Random Blog Post” button for a blast from the past year and some inspiration, and found the post where I talked about how I decided on my name.)
Anyway, my ex was the one who decided on the name Calvin, and I kept it in my name even though I never really used it. Now, any time I see that name, it reminds me of him and what he did to me, and a whole sequence of bad feelings come rushing back, so I’ve decided to drop it, move the “Thomas” back around to the first name spot, and go with my legal last name. Now my name will read Thomas Jack H______, and it’s considerably less clumsy and more comfortable. Besides, now that I’m becoming a lot closer to my dad, I’m a lot more comfortable with sharing his last name. I kind of wanted to change my last name originally because I was afraid he might not want to be associated with me, but he’s become a lot more accepting of it all since then. Now I’m ready to get my legal name change when that’s ready to happen.
I’m also thinking about starting my youtube channel soon. The computer with the camera doesn’t really work all that well and it doesn’t have much in the way of editing programs, but I figure if I don’t start now then I never will. I’m having a hard time coming up with an opening topic, though. I’ll keep looking and when I get it posted, I’ll put a link up.