I’m going back to volunteer again this year at the community Celtic Faire (kinda like Renaissance Faire, only celebrating Celtic tradition.) It’s another sort of geeky paradise, yet another thing I’ve always gone to that falls into the category of “an excuse to dress up as a man.” Particularly, I’ve always kind of gone as this bizarre scallywag-type character, not precisely pirate, not precisely knight. It’s fun, because last year I volunteered there (which basically amounts to pitching your tent on the fairgrounds for four days, doing anything and everything you’re told, and getting to take part in the after-parties which run into all hours of the morning.) I was working through an injury last year, which meant I never really got to work hard enough to earn the elusive and honored “workhorse” title, but I DID earn a Faire name, basically making me part of the family.
I became known as the Bearded Lady.
Back at that point, I actually thought it was all well and good and fun and games, but I’m not so sure how comfortable I am with it this year. I’ll probably wear that name with pride as long as I keep coming back to participate in Faire culture, but it’s funny how things that seemed harmless a year ago have developed a knee-jerk reaction of seeming offensive. I don’t know, it seems easier with this group to just let them believe I’m a tomboy. I’m not sure how accepting they would really be of my being trans. Still, Celtic Faire has always been one of those spaces in my life where I was happily known as a boy, at least to the people who visit, if not to the people who run it.
I’m wondering if they’ll even remember me this year, since I’ve gotten my hair cut and changed a few other things about myself, including the way I dress. I’m thinking I should just go by Tommy and hope they don’t remember who I am, play along, and if they do, just shrug it off and say it’s the nickname my friends have for me lately since I am such a tomboy…
I’m going to the volunteer meeting in 2 hours. Play it by ear, that’s my motto.
(Also, I’m considering making a kilt for myself this year. I have a week and a half- wish me luck?)