Sorry I’ve disappeared from the internets so long. Celtic Faire was a blast, and I’ll probably update on a lot more of that later on, but let’s just say by the end of the third night, a group of the guys had officially initiated me into their group as a dude, and I was feeling pretty damn good about things.
To anybody who thinks that going through transition is a bad idea: think again. I wouldn’t be getting my life on track this way otherwise.
This seemed very important to share with my fellow FTM’s, if to think about, to spread around, to make aware, or even just to correct one person before they hurt someone else.
http://www.fortunecity.com/village/maupin/133/MilesFromHome.htm
In this post, this woman is bringing a single point to light, one I was almost entirely unaware of:
“The misogyny in the FTM community is rampant.”
So I’m a little late on the uptake for this one. I tried my damnedest to find some way to watch it on the TGDoR, but nothing really wanted to work out for me on that day, period, and I wound up stranded at my trans-non-sympathetic friend’s house. He accepts me well enough, but he doesn’t really see that there’s a tragedy going on with these people, thinks the surgery is “cosmetic” and didn’t do more than shrug when I told him what day it was, or the Statistics. I started thinking, sometimes the ones that don’t care are worse than the ones who damn us.
But then I watched Boys Don’t Cry.
Also,
-Star Trek
-Coming out, and
-Chestnuts roasting on an open fire.
I’m feeling baffled and lonesome today. Not only did my car break down so I couldn’t go to any trans sympathetic events today, but all of my friends seem to be busy. But if I have to light a candle all by myself today in remembrance, I’ll do it. This day is weighing heavier on me than I thought it would.
Also,
-My coming out letter,
-Finding other trans people in my area,
-Making new friends out of the old, and
-”Boys Don’t Cry”.
This has been on my mind almost 24-7 lately (when I’m not thinking about what to do about my car, which broke down a day or two ago, and when I’m not trying to figure out how to get to Anime L.A. in January.) I know that I want this video by one of my favorite trans vloggers on Youtube, Heather, to be part of my coming out presentation, and I encourage any of my fellow transpeople to spread it around:
“Life in a Shreddies Box”
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fZfJcBRxlhI
(Though hell if I know what “Muslix” are. I think it’s a Canadian thing.)
This stream-of-consciousness blog contains some of the bolder thoughts I’ve ever had, some really explosive stuff (at least to me,) that I consider among the best blogs I’ve written. Either that or I’m really tired.
I think things in my life were getting too good. I was getting too nervous about being on top of things. Nothing bad’s happened yet, but with some trepidation I stepped away from my gay little friend with the delicious cock and all the other contraband I’ve been enjoying too much. I’ve been away from him for three days for the first time in two weeks and I’m just waiting in my storm shelter for the world to collapse around me.
On other things, there’s this amazing webcomic, and also the Trans Day of Remembrance.
