1 Year Manniversary!

So, it was this day last year that I made the decision to start living full time as male. I’ve pulled this from the first post on my blog:

“This is Day 1. Ground zero.
Today’s the official start of my transitioning process.
Some day, I won’t be the only person who sees me as a man. Some day the whole goddamn world will without a second guess. And it’s only a matter of time.
Joaquin Jack, the rootin’-est tootin’-est outlaw in the Wild West.”

A lot of things have changed since that day.

Cleaning and building.

Today I’ve cleaned my room, which is always a major event for me even though I don’t really let it get as bad as I used to.

It’s been a very productive day, because along with organizing and straightening and doing my laundry and so forth, I’ve been inspired to do a couple other things for myself:

1) assemble the playlist I’ll be playing at my Manniversary with songs that are relevant to my interests, and

2) finally put together that really awesome STP/packer with the harness that I’ve been wanting to make for so long.

Good things.

After my latest episode with very difficult issues (which I may or may not go into eventually), it was time to get away and get my head on straight. SO, with my sister begging me to come down and see her for some time now, I decided to use my savings to go down and spend a couple weeks with her in Los Angeles.

It was seriously the best idea I’ve had in a long while.

- Confirmed changes
- Pronoun epicness
- Voice lowering
- Breaking gender stereotypes with Sewing!
- Cosplay madness

And, the highlight:

- My first time in the Men’s Bathroom!

Severance.

I’d like to say right now that I’ve passed a milestone. Just a few minutes ago, I had the first female in my life ever to tell me to put the toilet seat down.

Also in this post-

- Why I’m finally chopping my hair off (and addressing your possible feelings of betrayal on the issue,)

- and my ceremonial Severance Ball: the last time, I should hope, that I will ever wear a dress.

This is now my transition AND integration journal.

EMO RANT INCOMING.

Geez, that last post was a huge chunk to handle. I don’t think anyone even knows how to respond to it. But I guess that’s okay, because nobody’s ever known how to respond to my DID. It’s one of those situations that is so comepletely outside of the norm that people expect, so they have no internal dialogue prepared for it when it comes up, no way of figuring out even what to feel about it.

General life update; the Big STP Post is Coming.

This Summer…
{can’t you just hear Don LaFontaine’s voice already? you know, that guy who does the voice for every major movie trailer in history?}