I can’t believe everything that’s happened so far. I haven’t had time really for blogging, vlogging or anything under that umbrella, because I’ve been wildly sick, suffering from a potentially slipped disc, and also staying in a place where I really have no internet access. HOWEVER, you all deserve to know that everything on the [...]
Tis be the time of 1:00am, and I can’t sleep cause my sleeping pattern has been obliterated, but I don’t have the energy to edit videos, so I’m going to do a little blog and keep you all updated till tomorrow when I’m going to finalize and post my vlogs. I’d like not to go [...]
As of yesterday, I’ve officially made it two years living full time as male. (My family even baked me a cake! The celebration would have been really nice if it weren’t for… stuff.) Lots of things have changed. I’ve been dealing with a lot of personal demons lately, a lot of shit from my childhood [...]
So, it was this day last year that I made the decision to start living full time as male. I’ve pulled this from the first post on my blog:
“This is Day 1. Ground zero.
Today’s the official start of my transitioning process.
Some day, I won’t be the only person who sees me as a man. Some day the whole goddamn world will without a second guess. And it’s only a matter of time.
Joaquin Jack, the rootin’-est tootin’-est outlaw in the Wild West.”
A lot of things have changed since that day.
I’ve been feeling like it would be a good idea to start focusing on some area of self-improvement that’s less trans focused. To be honest, there hasn’t been a day in the last nine months where achieving “maleness” wasn’t on my mind at least once every few hours. To be sure, my life has improved because of the switches I’ve made, but it seems unhealthy to be so obsessed with one aspect of my life, and frankly, I’m getting tired of it. Not to say I’m tired of being male- far from it, and there’s no way I’d ever go back. But sometimes, I just want a break from gender entirely.
